B"H
I have been in touch with Chabad for many years and going to the group's Shiurim was my first contact with Chassidut. Chabad Rabbis were always praising their Chassidus as the most intellectual of all groups. I heard this opinion many times when I was still looking into other groups. Especially into Satmar. However, I have never become a Chabad member, as I like to be "free" and go a little here and there. I am not such a firm person following only one Rebbe.
Chabad for me was always like a home or a shelter because the Shluchim are just everywhere. When I was in Germany or in Brussels for Pessach, one e - mail to Chabad and I was invited. There didn't exist a "We are booked" or "You cannot come". Chabad has space for every Jew and one doesn't even have to dress up too much. As far as I am concerned: Chabad is the only group where a woman can walk in wearing pants.
(There is one Chabad place in Jerusalem where you may be told by the Shaliach that you are not welcomed and may be even told to leave. I was told by other Chabadnikim that this particular person does have a problem but I don't know how Chabad is dealing with it)
Once I went to the Chabad Synagogue in Rashi Street in Bnei Brak. Still outside a asked a little boy for the women's entrance and he showed me a door men and women use. However, inside the behaviour was very different from all the open - minded Chabadnikim I have had experienced so far. Or in other words: I found it very strict. It was Kabbalat Shabbat and there were only two more women. The men prayed downstairs and we were sitting at the Ezrat Nashim upstairs. Then the service was interrupted and the men took an hour for studying. Not in Hebrew but in Yiddish. This was very unusual for me hearing a Chabadnik talking in Yiddish. Most Shluchim (many English speakers among them) I have met so far sometimes even struggle with Hebrew let alone knowing Yiddish.
There are things I like about Chabad and there are things I don't like.
Too many Shluchim only know about their own Chassidut but have no idea about Bobov, Belz, not even about the Peshis'cha movement. Chabad only !
Once I was at an English speaking Chabad event and an elderly Israeli woman wanted to tell a story of one of the Vishnitzer Rebbes. A younger Chabad Ba'alat Teshuva basically told her that the Vishnitzer story is not really appropriate and shut this woman up.
What drives me mad, and I think I started hating this during my time in Zfat a couple of months ago, that every Chabad Ba'al Teshuva feels the need to teach TANYA. No matter how much he knows. Even if he hardly knows anything. Sometimes it even sounds as if they were making up their own opinions if they have nothing else to say.
Me and some other visitors were forced to participate in evening classes which only consisted of TANYA. We were told that those are the rules and this is it. If we are there, we have to participate. In order not to, I sometimes walked around downtown in order to escape the same teachers. Every weekday the same teachers and after a while we knew exactly what they have to say. The question is how much can you take. The result was that we regulars stopped going and looked for all kinds of excuses. Until today, on Facebook or in e - mails, we keep on making jokes about that time. How we escaped a guy called Tuvia or a Rabbi with a Ba'al Teshuva Yeshiva. When I left Zfat I could hear any word but not the word TANYA anymore.
When I visit Zfat, I will go back to that place but not for a Shabbat. One or two weekdays is enough but I just can't suffer from those young Ba'alei Teshuva in their early twenties who think that they know everything and everyone coming to this particular place is such a secular Jew knowing nothing and they can push him around.
Maybe I should get to know more of the old original Chabadnikim ...:-)